30 Jan 2012： someone…

i don’t know him yet, i wish i was w him throughout his primary sch, Secondary sch and JC life.
Get to know him more and understand what is in his mind.
know what, human are contraditing, most of us dislike other treat us in certain way, however, sometime we treated ppl that way. i like peacefulness, slient, quiet, art, music and religious. Dislike noise, chit chatting, shopping( interactive activities). but i am not behaving in who i like myself to be. I have abandan Xing Lin, myself. Perhaps, if kr, didn’t meet Lynn, inturn he met Xing Lin, perhaps, ending may not be the same…

one day, Wil told me this:” if only that nv happened perhaps thing maybe different, u won’t become like this… perhaps…” “alot of thing may not happened, perhaps i still stand a chance in getting him whom i love. … i rmb, i cried for 2-3 hours after i heard that. but is hard to say… too many perhaps and maybe.

In the past, i use Lynn to protect Xing Lin, but i am too naviie. I thought Lynn can be thrown away, once Xing Lin have the courahe to face the world again but in fact, Xing Lin has been affect by Lynn, because both of them are me.

my biggest regret is what i have done in the past 2 years. … I want to back out from there… and restart my Life.
maybe too late, maybe impossible, i still wish that by miracle, i may be tgt with him. He is my ideal life partner …

-kr-

18 Jan 2012: 见你

Countdown 2 hours, silently praying hard that u wouldn’t last minute cancel this meet up. It hv been awhile since meeting u alone, and I felt extraordinary excited abt it. Last night, I can’t even sleep. My brain was fill with u and that song, 你最珍贵。 I know I shouldn’t hv all this kind of unnecessary feeling toward u, and I got to let go, I know that duet that we sang doesn’t meant anything but I can’t control this emotion from flooding me.
Perhaps that all this wld stop after today hv end.

It was a hilarious moment when u drop this msg…

“8.30 at amk or 9pm at yishun? Tml.”
“9pm at yishun.”
“anyway I will be joining u all on thurs dinner, cyaz!”
“so tmr r we still meeting?”
“yup”
In the third msg, I thought u wld cancel today meeting, since we are meeting on thurs, however, u actually give me 2 chance to meet u up. :*D. 好开心。

I m wondering wld our good friend turn up too? :3 cw. Perhaps he will, and he will bring joy to both of us. I dislike that silent between us.

I m really, anxious now upon meeting u… Despite it is just a ordinary meet up.

4 jan 2012: 原来我会哭。。。

Tear….
In the end he is a normal guy…

Rain start falling, those memories seen to be broken in to small pieces. As small as rain drop. I can’t hold them tgt anymore.

A friendship without memories… It is as good as stranger. Once as close friend become stranger. …

好痛。。。